Day 3- My Parents

Well this is kind of a touchy topic for me. I grew up in a loving home till I was about 5 or 6 years old. My mother has always been a constant in my life. She has made me who I am today. She used to make us "treats" every night after dinner, and after we had our "treats" (ice cream or cake) we would sit on her bed and she would ask us if we had anything we wanted to talk about. We would take for hours and hours about anything and she would answer any questions we had. Then we would read a book and go to sleep. She has been my rock and has been by my side for as long as I can remember. She really is an amazing woman and I owe so much to her.

My father on the other hand ... was never really ... there. He is an alcoholic and when I was younger I never really realized it. It was until I was 15 years did I realize how bad he really is. When I was 15 he decided to go to a strip club with some of his friends. His friends ended up leaving him there and at 5am we got a knock on the door from the police saying that he was found unconcious behind the club. We still don't really know what happened that night and I really don't want to know because I am sure it was nothing good. Anyways, so since that night he went into a quick downspiral. He drank between 20-30 beers a day. He couldn't hold a job and he hated my mom and me. I always would call me a bitch or a cunt and would pick fights with us. One day about 3 years ago he hit my mom really hard and threatend to kill her. He left the house and as he was leaving he threatended suicide. He left and we called the cops and they got him by the train tracks by my old house. We got a permenant restraining order from him 3 years ago and I haven't talked or seen him since. He doesn't contact me or send me birthday cards ( he sends them to my brothers). His whole side of the family my cousins, aunts, uncles, and grandparents haven't talked to me either. He really is a piece of shit and I will never forgive him for what he did to my family. We almost lost the house and we never had any money. My mom was left with nothing because of him. I hope one day he will maybe realize his mistakes in life and would want to talk to me about it, but I will never make the first step. I tried getting him help but failed time and time again.

So there are my parents. However, I am very fortunate to have amazing in-laws. They love me like I was their own daughter and that makes me feel really good.

My father will not be walking me down the aisle, but my two brothers are and I wouldn't have had it any other way.

Day 2- My first Love

Well my first "true" love is and always will be Greg. But I guess my first "love" who I thought I loved was my highschool boyfriend Marc. We dated for one year and for a while it was amazing and I loved him very much. But then things turned crazy. I found out he was cheating on me with like 5 different girls throughout the last couple months of our relationship. I remember the day exactly. Right after New Years I went back to school and the "new" girl came up to me in the bathroom and she said " Are you Marc's girlfriend?" I said yes why.. she said "well my best friend Ivy has been dating him for 2 months. They spent NYE together at my house". At first I didn't understand why should would say that, but after we broke up and everything she told me she thought I was really nice and didn't deserve to be treated like that. So anyway I ended up leaving school early and waited at his house for him to come home. I told him that I found out. He got so mad at me and starting throwing things at me. He ended up throwing a trophy at my head. Thankfully I ducked, but then I left.

I was heartbroken because I gave up a lot to be with him. I got into so many fights with my friends and family. But I was in love with him. Over the years he has contacted me and told me how sorry he was and that doing that to me was the worst thing and regretted it. He always wanted to get back together with me. But I never gave him a second chance.

But now I have the great true love of my life. He is going to be my husband and I couldn't be happier!

PS.. Thanksgiving was awesome and tomorrow is Thanksgiving 2 with the in-laws! Hope everyone's Thanksgiving was great!!

Day 1- About Me

About me:
My name is Lyndsay but everyone likes to call me Lily. I actually got that nickname a long time ago. Many of my family members called me Lily and it stuck. I am 25 years old and my birthday is July 27th.
I have multicolored hair (lol.. mostly brown but there is some red, blonde, and black in there) I have hazel eyes that are blind as a bat so I wear contacts and glasses. I am really short 5'1 and I am technically "overweight" I weigh 125 lbs.
I have been a college student since 2003 but finally graduating in 2 weeks. I am receiving my Bachelors degree in Elementary Education and Psychology. I hope to get a teaching job some time in the near future.
I live with my Fiance, Greg. We have been dating for 5 years and 3 months. We are getting married next October!!  We recently moved into a small 1 bedroom apartment, which is like a mansion to us. We did live in my family's basement for three years. We also just adopted 2 little kitties... Lily and Sophie and I love them very much.
I love being at home. I am very much a homebody and really don't like going out. I love to read as many books as I can and I love movies and television.
I like doing certain things like being on the web, shopping, and hanging out with my friends.
I am a very emotional person and I can cry about anything. I have a lot of issues but that will be saved for another post. LOL.
I really love my life and who I am.

PS.. Happy Thanksgiving!!!

Stole this from Ninna!

 This seems like a lot of fun and I stole it from Ninna. Yay! Now I have to post everyday!


Day 01 - About me
Day 02 - My first love
Day 03 – My parents
Day 04 – I ate this today
Day 05 – What is love?
Day 06 – My day
Day 07 – My best friend
Day 08 – One moment
Day 09 – My faith
Day 10 – Today I wore this
Day 11 – My siblings
Day 12 – In my handbag
Day 13 – This week
Day 14 – What was I wearing today?
Day 15 – My dreams
Day 16 – My first kiss
Day 17 – My favorite memory
Day 18 – My favorite birthday
Day 19 – This I regret
Day 20 – This month
Day 21 – Another moment
Day 22 – This upsets me
Day 23 – This makes me feel better
Day 24 – This makes me cry
Day 25 – A first
Day 26 – My fears
Day 27 – My favorite place
Day 28 – This I miss
Day 29 – My ambitions
Day 30 – One last moment

Dum.. Dum.. Dum... DUmmmm

So technically according to our lease, we are NOT allowed to have any pets. Sooo of course today they just put a sign on everyone's door stating that there will be a state inspection of our apartments! WTF!!! So now I have to take a day off from Student Teaching, pack up all the kitty stuff, put most of it in my car the night before. Then tuesday morning pack up the babies and go to grandma's house!!! Like seriously, I hate this policy... I think it's crap.

So great. On the other hand.. Thanksgiving is tomorrow!!! Yay I love Thanksgiving! We are traveling to Long Branch, NJ to see my aunts, uncles, and cousins. I am making an applecrisp and corn bread tonight to bring tomorrow. I love Thanksgiving... especially with my family. I love doing Thanksgiving with Greg's family too, but it isn't as fun as my family.

(ewww kitty fart) smells sooo bad! ahhh!!

Last night was sooo funny. Lily went to the litter box and went poopies, but it didn't come out all the way and she left the litter box before it fell. Well we had to pick up three turds on the living room floor. I wouldn't mind if it didn't smell so bad. They have badddd kitty poops lol. I know gross but we thought it was really funny!!

Wish us luck on Tuesday!!!

Oh boy... I slacked!

Yup I slacked!! I haven't posted since August. I feel like my life has been a whirlwind of things!
Update:!!!

 So since August, Greg and I moved into our new apartment. We love this place soo much! It is great to be on our own.
I picked out my wedding dress and bridesmaids dresses! 

These are the bridesmaids dresses. The color is Lapis

This is my dress. It's all lace.. It is a Gallina dress from David's Bridal

This isn't the most flattering picture of me, but this is the dress and my veil. My mom is standing in the back crying haha! I do need to loose a few more pounds before I walk down the aisle. It was the second dress I tried on!

We also booked the venue... here it is... http://www.thetides.com/

It's awesome and the food is fantastic!!! 

We also adopted two kitties! We got them last Friday and we have been soooo happy ever since!!!  They are 3 months old and very playful. Their names are Sophie and Lily <3 sooo cute!

this is what happened when I left the bathroom door opened

This is Sophie! She is the smaller one. She is def. a mamma and daddy's girl. She likes to snuggle!

This is Lily <3 she is very playful and doesn't like to be held very much. But she takes very good care of her sister.

That is my update for now. I will try to update more since I will be graduating school in 2 weeks!!! WOOT!

Leaving...

One of the very first memories of my house is coming home with my mom from the supermarket and I stood in the kitchen and watched her put all the food away. She has a picture of me, standing there, holding a small secret. After she put all the food away, I told her that I pooped haha. I was still in diapers. It's gross, but it was the first memory that I can vividly remember about living in my house.
 Now twenty something years later, I am packing up all those memories, putting them in a box and saying goodbye to the only place I have ever felt comfortable. I know every scrap on the wall, all the holes in the doors and all the cracks in the windows of this place. It's not the prettiest place or the best kept but it has been my home for 25 years.
I am  not gone yet, but the fact that my living is now emptied and all my belongings are in a box waiting to go to it's new home makes me very sad and emotional. I have always been a "home body" and coming home to Hamilton Avenue is what I have always known and even though there have been so many "bad" memories here, doesn't stop me from being so sad to leave it.
Now I get to go on my own, with my fiance, and build our own home together. I am excited and very nervous, but I will never ever forget the memories from Hamilton Avenue; all the crazy good times, and all the sad times. I will never forget the noodle fight me and my brother had or the morning's of Christmas and seeing all the presents around our Christmas tree that has now been thrown out. I will never forget pushing the two couches together to make a fort to crawl under. I will never forget sleeping in the hallway to the sounds of the "Honeymooner's". I will never forget my mom cleaning this house every weekend for as long as we have been here.
People say houses are just "4 walls", but to me it's a safe place; a place that I knew I could go to if something happened to me. So this is my goodbye to the place I grew up in, to the place that has made me who I am today, to the place that made me feel welcomed and comfortable. I say goodbye, but I hope to leave you in the hands of a new family that can make amazing memories here and wake up on Christmas morning to seeing the presents all over.