Save the dates are out!

So yesterday I addressed and stuffed my STD envelopes! I hope everyone likes them. It was really a pain in the ass to do because everything has to be perfect and correct. The wording has to be correct... really just a pain. I understand why I was procrastinating this. I realized that I am procrastinating everything!! LOL

Here is the link of what my save the dates look like http://www.magnetstreet.com/carved-in-love-autumn-save-the-date-magnets
Obviously it has our information on it. hehe

So currently I am watching the new season of the Bachelor... I really think this show is ridiculous. How can one guy meet 30 girls and pick ONE to MARRY like a few weeks later?? I think it is ridiculous!

I am so happy for Megz and Bryan that they picked their wedding date. 11/5/11 was the original date we wanted!! So it's a great day.

I have so much to do for the wedding so I plan on doing a few things today!

This one is for Paula!

So I purchased a 120 color eyeshadow palette and the first person to pop in my head was Paula. hehe! This post is for you... now I am no expert on makeup and I tried. It actually took me a good 10 mins today to put this eyeshadow on. I usually only spend like 2 mins!

One side of palette

other side

The whole thing

Don't really know how to get the camera light perfect.. this is the first shot

Second

Third

Final after I dryed my hair lol... I used a light pink for the base, a darker pink in the crease, and a purple on the sides

 I suppose I did alright the first time around. I really don't know how to apply makeup properly.

Bad poster... yet again!

Happy New Year!!!! 2011 is going to be a fantastic year! I can feel it already. I am getting married and my bestest friend is pregnant!!!! I am so happy! I hope everyone had a fantastic Christmas and New Year. So here is the last of my days. I have been a bad blogger yet again, but one of my new year's resolutions is to be more active and a better friend to all my online loves. I feel left out most of them time because I never keep up with anyone :(... so I hope to do better this year. 

Day 24 – This makes me cry
Any commercial that has animals from a shelter. I hate those that have Sarah McLaughlin singing in the background and the dogs and cats are all beat up and look like they are crying. Those commercials kill me!  I usually cry about everything. I am such a big baby! Most movies or t.v. shows make me cry lol.

Day 25 – A first
cup of coffee in the morning is magical! I LOVE LOVE LOVE coffee! I am definitely a caffeine addict. But I drink a lot of soda... just coffee. I will have it any kind of way too... hehe. Black, cream and sugar, flavored, cappuccino, espresso... anything.

Day 26 – My fears
My fears are that I will be alone. I know I am with Greg, but I am always afraid that something will happen to him and I will be left alone. It scares me to even just think about it. I think that is why I can be too protective because I don't want him to go out and do something stupid that would leave me on this world alone. I have a terrible fear of snakes and zombies. I know zombies don't exist ( not that I have seen anyway), but they still scare the shit out of me. Snakes are by far the scariest things on this planet. I can't even watch them on t.v.

Day 27 – My favorite place
My favorite place is on my couch in my living room. I do a lot here. Read...watch t.v.... go on the internet. It's also a magical couch. Every time I don't feel good I can  lay here and I will automatically feel better.

Day 28 – This I miss
The days when the only concern I had was "what's for dinner?". Now I have so many concerns and being a grown up sucks sometimes. I was with my bestest friend the other day.. Christie... and she has a 6 year old step-daughter and I was just listening to her talk and just not a care in the world, but the one thing she asked about several times was "what's for dinner?" and I can remember when that was my only concern. I miss those days.

Day 29 – My ambitions
To change the life of at least one child.

Day 30 – One last moment
The last moment I realized that I was no longer a child and that I was a grown-up. I love my life... I really do... but sometimes I just want to go back to the days of playing with Barbie dolls and watching Full House.

Day 5- 23 LOL!! I haven't been able to post

Day 5- What is love?
Love is not something to throw around. Love is when you are completely and utterly taken away by someone. Love for me is Greg. He takes my breath away everyday. He cares for me in every aspect of life. Love is being able to have faults and not be perfect and still have someone love you just the way you are. Love is the unconditional love from your family regardless of what you do and who you are. To me that is love.

Day 6- My Day
Well today I woke up around 9:45am. I had a cup of coffee and played with my kitties for a while. Then I took a shower and got ready for extended family christmas at my in-laws. We went there around 1pm and ate food, talked to family, and exchanged some gifts. Then we left around 5:30 and got home at 6:00 and fed the kitties and now I am here typing this! LOL

Day 7-My best friend
My best friend is Bri. We have been best friends since the 1st grade and she is my maid of honor in my wedding. She is one month younger than me. She graduated from Fairleigh Dickenson University as a technical theater major. She has been a stage manager for many school shows and has worked off-broadway several times. She is incredibly smart and she makes me laugh all the time. She always has my back and I couldn't have asked for a better best friend.

Day 8- One Moment
Well one moment I can't wait for is standing at the beginning of the aisle looking at Greg at our wedding. I can't wait to take his hands into mine and for the moment we say "I Do". I can't wait for the first moments as husband and wife.

Day 9-My faith

Well I grew up in a Lutheran home. But over the years I have lost all of my faith in any other "being". I guess you can consider me an agnostic. I have to see it to believe it. I feel that some things in my life would have been different if there really is someone up there looking down on me. I have faith in man kind and I have faith that if you are a good person then there will a place for you where ever we go after we die.


Day 10 – Today I wore this
I wore a gray sweater dress with light gray stockings with a design on them. I wore black boots.

Day 11 – My siblings
I have the best brothers in the world. Robert is 23 years old and he is amazing! He works three jobs and has kept my family together since my father left. He is like a father figure to me. He protects me and gives me good advice. Raymond is 17 and he is a very good boy. He has been through a lot since everything with my dad happened when he was younger. They are going to be walking me down the aisle when I get married.

Day 12 – In my handbag
Oh boy my purse always has a lot of crap in it... my wallet, a pocket calendar, about 7 pens, 2 pencils, my usb key, kidstuff coupon book, a color swatch of my bridesmaids dress, a coupon holder, a mini bag of lipstick and lipgloss, the perfume I wear for the day, eyeliner, and my mp3 player.

Day 13 – This week
This week was boring. I worked Monday, Tuesday, Thursday and Friday. Wednesday I went Christmas shopping and took the babies to the vet. Thursday I went to the doctor for a physical and yesterday we went to a Christmas party. Tomorrow I have my friends graduation party. Very busy!!

Day 14 – What was I wearing today?
Well I explained what I wore today in Day 10, but right now I am wearing pajama pants and a t-shirt from Aerie!

Day 15 – My dreams
I don't really remember my dreams. Sometimes I have very crazy dreams that feel really real, but usually I don't remember them. If we are talking about "my dreams"... my dream is to just be happy, married, and successful in my career. I dream of living in a nice house with children and loving life.

Day 16 – My first kiss
My first kiss was SLOPPY!!!!! I was in 9th grade and the boy I was dating invited me over to his house. His name was Keith. He lived like 2 blocks away from me so I just walked over to hang out with him. When I got there we decided to watch Dazed and Confused. All of a sudden he started kissing me on his bed. It was gross he just couldnt keep his saliva in his mouth. BLEH

Day 17 – My favorite memory
The night Greg proposed to me. It was the best moment of my entire life. Not much else to say about it. It was simply amazing!

Day 18 – My favorite birthday
My 21st birthday. Not because I could drink, because I don't really drink that much as it is, but that weekend we went to a bed and breakfast. We went to this place called Cape May. It is along the Jersey Shore and they have a quaint little town with good restaurants and little stores. They have ALOT of bed and breakfasts so Greg made reservations at this B&B called the Primerose Inn. I loved it and we had sooo much fun. It was the best birthday ever!!!

Day 19 – This I regret
Forget regret....

Day 20 – This month
This month has been crazy!! I graduated from college Dec. 9th and a lot of holiday things going on. I love this time of year since I can see my family a lot.

Day 21 – Another moment
Walking into our first apartment. It was the greatest feeling to know that this was OUR place now.

Day 22 – This upsets me
A lot of things upset me. Stupid petty fights, the news, the fact that gay people don't have the same rights as everyone else. The way the NJ governor treats the teachers and the teacher union. Students who come to school dirty, ripped clothes, no food and abused. Students that are pushed to the side in the educational system. Not having a lot of money upsets me. My dad upsets me and so does his side of the family.

Day 23 – This makes me feel better
Coming home after a long day. Seeing my babies and my hunny. Hanging out with friends and shopping!!! LOL

Day 4- I ate this today

It was a weird day...

Breakfast- 3 pancake bites from Dunkin Donuts..yummm and coffee.

Lunch- Honey mustard pretzels about a handful

Late Lunch/ Early dinner- Vietnamese Pho (it's soup it's really good!!! )

The day isn't over yet. I might have something else but not sure yet. lol

Day 3- My Parents

Well this is kind of a touchy topic for me. I grew up in a loving home till I was about 5 or 6 years old. My mother has always been a constant in my life. She has made me who I am today. She used to make us "treats" every night after dinner, and after we had our "treats" (ice cream or cake) we would sit on her bed and she would ask us if we had anything we wanted to talk about. We would take for hours and hours about anything and she would answer any questions we had. Then we would read a book and go to sleep. She has been my rock and has been by my side for as long as I can remember. She really is an amazing woman and I owe so much to her.

My father on the other hand ... was never really ... there. He is an alcoholic and when I was younger I never really realized it. It was until I was 15 years did I realize how bad he really is. When I was 15 he decided to go to a strip club with some of his friends. His friends ended up leaving him there and at 5am we got a knock on the door from the police saying that he was found unconcious behind the club. We still don't really know what happened that night and I really don't want to know because I am sure it was nothing good. Anyways, so since that night he went into a quick downspiral. He drank between 20-30 beers a day. He couldn't hold a job and he hated my mom and me. I always would call me a bitch or a cunt and would pick fights with us. One day about 3 years ago he hit my mom really hard and threatend to kill her. He left the house and as he was leaving he threatended suicide. He left and we called the cops and they got him by the train tracks by my old house. We got a permenant restraining order from him 3 years ago and I haven't talked or seen him since. He doesn't contact me or send me birthday cards ( he sends them to my brothers). His whole side of the family my cousins, aunts, uncles, and grandparents haven't talked to me either. He really is a piece of shit and I will never forgive him for what he did to my family. We almost lost the house and we never had any money. My mom was left with nothing because of him. I hope one day he will maybe realize his mistakes in life and would want to talk to me about it, but I will never make the first step. I tried getting him help but failed time and time again.

So there are my parents. However, I am very fortunate to have amazing in-laws. They love me like I was their own daughter and that makes me feel really good.

My father will not be walking me down the aisle, but my two brothers are and I wouldn't have had it any other way.

Day 2- My first Love

Well my first "true" love is and always will be Greg. But I guess my first "love" who I thought I loved was my highschool boyfriend Marc. We dated for one year and for a while it was amazing and I loved him very much. But then things turned crazy. I found out he was cheating on me with like 5 different girls throughout the last couple months of our relationship. I remember the day exactly. Right after New Years I went back to school and the "new" girl came up to me in the bathroom and she said " Are you Marc's girlfriend?" I said yes why.. she said "well my best friend Ivy has been dating him for 2 months. They spent NYE together at my house". At first I didn't understand why should would say that, but after we broke up and everything she told me she thought I was really nice and didn't deserve to be treated like that. So anyway I ended up leaving school early and waited at his house for him to come home. I told him that I found out. He got so mad at me and starting throwing things at me. He ended up throwing a trophy at my head. Thankfully I ducked, but then I left.

I was heartbroken because I gave up a lot to be with him. I got into so many fights with my friends and family. But I was in love with him. Over the years he has contacted me and told me how sorry he was and that doing that to me was the worst thing and regretted it. He always wanted to get back together with me. But I never gave him a second chance.

But now I have the great true love of my life. He is going to be my husband and I couldn't be happier!

PS.. Thanksgiving was awesome and tomorrow is Thanksgiving 2 with the in-laws! Hope everyone's Thanksgiving was great!!